'I'm still here'- Goo Goo dolls/Dr Who video clip

Recently I have come across a few songs with lyrics that seem to portray fairly accuratly thoughts/feelings/opinions that I have been unable to give words to myself. I rarely play songs that don't fit my situation at any given time either by their lyrics or the feel of the whole music in general, so if one was wanting to understand me, it would be of better use to go through my playlist for that day, rather then engage me in a conversation...you might as well tell a blind man to see!

I'm still here by the Goo Goo Dolls-

I am a question to the world
Not an answer to be heard
(I am one hard person to figure out, the harder you try to find answers, the more questions you will recieve!)
Or a moment
That's held in your arms (you may be 'holding on' to what I was in one particular moment, when that is not who I always am.)

And what do you think you'd ever say?
I won't listen anyway
You don't know me
And I'll never be what you want me to be
(No amount of persuasion is going to create a different person out of me. I am who I am, and the person I am can be very uncomfortable to others at times, but I can never really be who people want me to be, without sacrifising my whole being and feeling like I rather be dead.)

And what do you think you'd understand? (I often get annoyed with people who 'think' they understand all about me, better then myself, and then dictate these theories back to me as indisputable truth! When really it is just what they have learned from interactions with other women or their own experiences. They can not percieve that someone can follow along a different script!)
I'm a boy, no, I'm a man (okay obviously change to girl/woman....I often feel like I am just a child and emotion wise, I still can be, however I am a woman, and have all the expectations and responsibilities of one, which I have to remind myself (and other people) at times.
You can't take me
And throw me away (again you can't take away the part of me that makes me, me! You can't 'cure' me as you might as you would be 'throwing away' all that I am with it!

And how can you learn what's never shown? (In reference to having to learn intellectually all the social/emotional things that others just know intuitively?)
Yeah, you stand here on your own
They don't know me
Cause I'm not here

Chorus:
And I want a moment to be real
Wanna touch things I don't feel
Wanna hold on and feel I belong (Oh how I have dreamt of what it would be like to have a brain wired differently, to experience life the way others do, so I can relate and feel like I belong!)
And how can the world want me to change?
They're the ones that stay the same (Yes I find that it is a different matter when I want others to change the way they communicate/behave to fit with me. I am expected to be the one to change (and not only that to want to change), to fit in with the majority. I am forever trying to analyse myself and to work on my own self-improvement, taking in everyone elses comments, I have always felt though like I was the only one concerned with making such improvements!?)
They don't know me
Cause I'm not here

And you see the things they never see
All you wanted I could be
Now you know me
And I'm not afraid (Having said all of the above, if someone was to come into my life who understood, accepted and loved me for who I was, I would be more willing to become a better person for them within my abilities to do so, knowing that I still would be loved if I could not obtain such a goal, I wouldn't live in fear of them rejecting me.

And I want to tell you who I am
Can you help me be a man? (I desperatly want to tell at least one person who I really am, for just one person to understand me, and who will help me 'grow up' without being critical.)
They can't break me
As long as I know who I am (As long as I have my identity intact, that I don't change into who they want me to be, and worse, starting to believe myself that is who I am, then I will be strong enough not to be 'broken' by them.)

Chorus

They can't tell me who to be
Cause I'm not what they see
Yeah, the world is still sleepin while I keep on dreaming for me
And their words are just whispers and lies thatI'll never believe

Chorus

I'm the one now
Cause I'm still here
I'm the one
Cause I'm still here
I'm still here
I'm still here
I'm still here

Okay. I think you get the idea of why I like this song so much.

You see, the way I see it is that I don't have a 'social self', a social identity that truely reflects who I am. Rather the person that you may converse with is simply a reflection of the people I have learnt to mimic, in order to be involved with other people at all! The only way I can think to describe this feeling of social interaction is 'abusive'. It is like others are taking away your identity, your right to 'be'. If I am around others too much I can forget who I really am, totaly feel 'out of my body' and wonder if I exist as an individual entity at all! I then can become reliant on others to tell me what to do, to make decisions for me, to tell me how to think and what my opinions should be. I can easily become controlled and am vunerable to abusive relationships because of this lack of identity. That is why I like my alone time. So I can have my own thoughts, my own feelings, uninterrupted by others around me.